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i believe i love you still, sir.
and probably always will,
somewhere deep
down inside.

but for now all i can do is pretend that i don't .
it's what is best. for you.
No. for me. i need to learn
to put myself

i am dying a little bit each time
we hug, and you say "Hey".
"Hey" leave me
be, go away
to where
she is.

i realize you like her alot [more than me]
and i've grown to accept that,
i think.

i think the only reason i can't get over you
is because i never had a chance
to be with you,
to kiss your

you're a decent guy and any girl is lucky to have you.
i'm very unlucky, it seems.
i can't find the rainbow
to find the end of "us",
no that's not true,
there is no

it took me three months to detox from your scent, smile,
hair, humor, laugheyeslipsteethbrainbones.
but only three whole minutes to retox,

i hate you for making me like this.
i love you for making me like this.
you've made me blind to other boys.
you've let me see myself, for once.
that i have a talent, knack
for words that could rip a soul
apart, into three million pieces,
in just under three short seconds.
thank you for that,
i guess.

i guess that i've always been this way, full
of words and emotions and other crap
but if you had never come along i
wouldn't have ever let out a word
onto this blank page.

i want this to be the last time i write You
a poem, a word, a thought. the last time
You=you. i need you to equal
someone else, but your quite the
attention hog and just won't let
that happen, now
will you, my dear?

now will you, dear, please get out of my head?
i am about to cry and i do not want all this
ink to go to waste. to waste my time
and talents on such an oblivious boy
sickens me. but then again, i strive
for sickness, don't i? the emotions
i've become so addicted to.
i [do]n't need you.

but then again, who doesn't
get addicted to something
these days?
full title: "i don't want to steal a title from Fall Out Boy, but i might just have to."

i'm so tired of this repetitive, endless cycle we're going in.
dude, why are we so awkward lately? i mean, i'm always awkward, but still. it wasn't always like that.
i miss you.

(yes, there was inspiration from the line "boycott love, detox just to retox" tangled all up in there. sorry.)
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Xinestral Featured By Owner Sep 8, 2010
Wow, it seems you had alot on your mind. Hope everything works out for the best.
ToSeeAButterfly Featured By Owner Sep 9, 2010   Photographer
yeah, i did. thanks.
XsheepandmeeseX Featured By Owner Sep 8, 2010  Student Writer
just like. perefect to the power of awesome.
ToSeeAButterfly Featured By Owner Sep 8, 2010   Photographer
thank you so much!

and thanks for the favorite, as well.

(ps. i featured you in my journal, if that's okay with you.)
XsheepandmeeseX Featured By Owner Sep 8, 2010  Student Writer
You're welcome times two!

ToSeeAButterfly Featured By Owner Sep 9, 2010   Photographer
yes, for reals! haha.
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